Tuesday, June 9, 2009
letting go...?
Ok here it goes,
My best friend since freshman year just told me she needs a break bc I was a little mean to her when we were both drunk. The thing is I was completely justified. This was our first "fight" or argument or whatever it was. And shes so quick to dismiss our friendship. while our other friend has been nothing but a pain in the ass and she does nothing but non-stop complain about her and she's still friends with her. Seems a bit unfair.
oh and a big part of it has to do with the ab models. My two friends who I've gotten closer with in the past few months. I like one of them more than I should. Especially after being told that he only likes me as a friend, but dont worry im the nicest person they know and blah blah. Anyway, they both like her and I just could not handle the fact that the guy i really like likes my best friend, its the worst position to be in, but its even worse when my best friend is around them constantly when she knows how upset it makes me. I tried not to let it bother me but its hard when she just hangs around them to get the attention and the only reason shes friends with them is bc i liked him. I even mentioned how i dont know if i could handle him talking to her and during my party she never left his side. Its disappointing that my best friend would do that, and she sees nothing wrong with it.
So I guess this is when i let go.
I tried thats all that counts.
At what point is enough really enough?!
I throw a party for me and my best friend... what i get out of it is football team that hates me, a broken bathroom, my dad mad at me, and 2 best friends gone. not to mention a lot of money that wasnt repaid. I know a lot of it is my fault and i do take credit for it but the best friends thing is ridiculous, i guess true colors come out. At least I realized who I can count on and that i do have good friends and I dont need the unnecessary bullshit anymore. In a way its been a long time coming. I've been taking shit from them for a while now. I was always understanding when they werent, this was just the last straw. It sucks but its come to the point where its are they really worth all the aggregation. I finally say no.
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