It amazes me how fast I fell for you, hopefully the feelings are mutual, I think I deserve that by now.

Haha I google everythinggg

No strings?

La Ilusion

HALFWAY!

“The most important trip you may take in life is meeting people halfway”

— Henry Boye

Books are the greatest friends.

I wish I had more time to read. I saw a commercial for maximum ride and my mom bought me that book years ago and I loved it, its so gay but I found out theres 6 books, I only read 3, gotta get on that lol

Spring forward

Spring is here, so bust out the flip flops, the tanks and show a little skin. Our bodies have been hiding under layers of clothes and now it's time to take it off. Take a walk, wash your car, do things outside, our skin craves some vitamin K. It's the time to show off cute styles of dresses/skirts/shorts. Bright colors are also very spring. Painted toes and cute hand bags. Spring brings sunshine which brings happiness and love. The warmth brings new positive attitudes that will only brighten with each day. So take a step forward into the new season and never ever look back.

It still amazes me...

How much I subconsciously stopped doing things I use to love because they remind me of my mom.

Watching t.v shows is one of the main ones... I couldn't watch greys for a year, and today was the ghost whisperer, it was another one of "our" shows. I didn't realize that I just stopped watching it until I watched an episode today and realized how much it reminds me of the time we would watch it, on a friday night, jeez I was such a dork... Thank god, I appreciate that time now.

Pharmily

"At the end of the day, you either focus on what breaks you or what holds you together"

Today was actually pretty hectic, another day in my life haha. I have a lot of things to stress out about, and even though my face definitely shows my stress ( I hate it! I wash my face everyday I don't understand), I still had a lot of fun today and that was because I was with people who make me extremely happy, even if we are all like 12 year olds hysterically laughing in the library, not getting that much work done. So many funny things happened. It still amazes me how close I got to these people, I didn't think I was going to have that opportunity again in college, I figured I got my chance already, but I got a second chance, with really good hearted people, I am really going to miss them all when we graduate. I wish there was more time to have fun instead of just studying, but what can you do.

Picture perfect sundays

To better, less stressed days!

Slow Awkward Turtle!

The hardest thing to accept.

Not our finest hour.

MY problem is, I expect the best out of people, for them to live up to their potential as a good friend/person.

EVERYONE else's problem is, they immediately think the worst of me, even though I think I've proven myself multiple times in being a genuinely good person.


This applies to a lot of people who I know/known, and to be honest its a bit ridiculous. People make mistakes, stop holding it against me, stop believing other people, stop making assumptions, just stop! Base your opinions of me off the way I treat you as a whole. So one night I overreacted a little, get over it. I would do the same for you. Even if I get frustrated at first I always believe the good in people.

Believe the good in me.

Alive while dreaming.

Butterflies to the max!

People change.

I've heard that statement a lot. I've witnessed it. I've even went through it myself. Everything changes. Surroundings change. Nothing remains the same. We'd like to think that the goodness of people wont change as everything else seems to. However, most of the time this does not seem to happen. And thats the worst kind of change someone can do, change what you liked about them, almost deceiving you because you still believe they are the person you once knew, the person you know they can be. Memories make you remember who they were and hope they still are. You miss them, but they are no longer the same person.

I all the time miss who people use to be. I remember what they use to do, their kindness, funnyness, the small things. Now it's like a complete stranger. But I still hope that they are there somewhere deep inside. Which is just a recipe for disappointment.

Today it popped into my head (for some unknown reason) the time when pj bought me sugar-free red bulls despite the fact that they are too "girly" for him to buy just bc he knew I liked them. Where did this boy, who I use to know fairly well, who was actually a nice decent guy, go? where did dan O, this guy who use to call me all the time just to talk, one of my best friends, who I could always depend on to talk, go? I can say the same for a lot of other people too.

People change right?!

Thats not a good enough excuse.

Can't buy me love.

No matter what the Beatles will forever remind me of my mom singing in the car to can't buy me love. The best memory. She use to sing a lot of Beatles songs to me, they were her favorite and now whenever I hear their songs I instantly smile, even if it's followed by tears.

Crazy Beautiful

I think its about time.

The Art of Work

I want to paint again. It's a really nice outlet and I use to be ok (not great but not terrible). I miss doing things I use to love. See thats the thing about growing up, we get too wrapped up in life that we never have time to appreciate things that once made us happy. I have so much ambition in me, I wish I had the time and energy to execute it.

This is the start of something new, don't you agree

Today I talked to the cute boy in lab (I asked to use his ID to get into a room that I still don't have access to and his name is mike but I will still refer to him as cute boy since we didn't officially exchange names) But I also found out that he's extremely nice and funny and obviously smart, I guess I just mean I can potentially like him, and that's very exciting, we actually talked today, granted it wasn't that much but it's a nice start, with time it will become more comfortable. And then who knows :)

I always say I'm too nice, but its who I am and I wouldn't want to change it

Warm nights

"I want to feel the moist grass against my skin as I lay down next to you holding my hand, staring up at the stars and just laying there for a while appreciating the beauty of nature."

I took out the garbage today and it was so nice out, I stood there for a while just staring up at the stars, its really peaceful. I love getting lost in thought about how that little specks are really huge and how we're so small in the universe. I would love to just lay on the grass and just be for a while, and of course to have someone cool next to me. I realized I didn't fully appreciate last summer and all its warmth, maybe because it was raining more than it was sunny but this summer is going to be different, I can feel it.

Peace & happiness

Fate?

"And maybe, just maybe, we're meant to be somewhere at the exact right time for something magical to happen"

Love.

Best motivation before a test EVER. haha

"Well youre a bit of a nerd so I'm sure you'll do great haha I'm jkkkkk but you're smart so you knowwww"
-Melody Seiso

one soul.

Busy days

clear head

Overload

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop."

Growing up.

"I can't think of a single reason why I should be a surgeon, but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose... there are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing, I love the playing field."

50/50

I thought this was really adorable...
I'll let you sit on me if you let me sit on you.

Hey sunshine