Don't make me fall for you unless you have every intention of catching me.

The best hugs I've ever been given,
The way you play fight with me,
The way you touch me,
The constant compliments that I awkwardly accept,
The alone food outings,
The charming behavior,
The sweet things you say,
The songs you send me that you played on guitar,
The way you can always make me feel better,
The random texts you send me,
The way you walk past everyone else and ask me to get coffee with you,
The comfort you provide for me,
The comfort you allow me to provide for you,
The way you opened up to me,
The fact that you creepily yet cutely stalk my fb,
The look you give me when you're being funny,
The way you lean over me to work on my computer,
The attention you always give me,
The reasons I had no say in falling for you.


The unanswered texts,
The fact that I still don't know how you feel about me,
The many girls you have as friends,
The fear that I'm just one of many,
The other priorities you have in you're life,
The reasons why you're crushing me.

I try

Buddies

self Sabotage.

ahhh you looked really cute today, like really cute, I couldn't stop staring at you... What am I doing?!

Lab boy

bastards! hah

Sweetie.

"You don't gotta say that you like it...
I can tell by the look in your eyes...
Won't you give it a try....
you'll be mine!"

Meet me in Montauk.

Lifeline

Very deep down.

What's the point anymore.

I just realized it is about exactly 1 year ago when Mr. feez told me about your feelings for me... what makes me think it's different this time around?

I think the thing I keep struggling with the most is the fact that I wouldn't mind doing all this bullshit if you were worth it in the end... but you're not even nice anymore, I can't remember the last time you did something cute. It's not okay and I'm not wasting my summer like I did last year.

Happy Mothers Day.

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now...

...What would you wish for if you had one chance"

I want you I want you I want you I want you!

Juicy couture

hmm birthday gift? I wanted a new camera but I'd rather this and wait til my old one dies. It's so pretty I want it! This just screams summer with a sundress and flip flops. Its pre-order til 5/15 though, but it's worth the wait haha

I want her hair and the saying is too true for me.

The only person you can judge is yourself.

boys boys boys haha

hmm these past few days have been an interesting turn of events in the aspect of guys. I'm gonna list them because its too funny not to.

First pj, he will not let me not be friends with him, I will never understand this other than the fact that he likes keeping me around for some reason when with anyone else he doesnt care about, whats up with that?! why put in all the effort to keep me around? I hate my weakness for him and how I'm not strong enough to walk away from him, so I figured I'd let him be the one to walk away, I was a straight up bitch and cursed him out and told him we shouldnt be friends (again) and (again) he pulled his pj charms and I know I can't resist that. We'll see, I mean I'm in the state of mind where I just dont give a fuck anymore haha so whatever happens happens. If he ever gets the balls enough to kiss me then I wont object but I dont expect anything from him anymore.

Nick, was a nice surprise, I thought he was so obnoxious in class, that'll teach me to judge before knowing anyone. He's the sweetest kid. So flirty and did I mention hot?! myyy godddd

Dan O, ran up to me and gave me the biggest hug and in that moment I knew the old dan was back, melody told me how he said he was over everything and wanted to be friends again and the whole night he was my best friend again. It was so nice to have him back, I didnt realize how much I really missed him until then.

Alan, was so fun and freaking adorable. Everything he did was just sweet and made me feel like how a guy should make a girl feel, even today hes making all the efforts, I dont have to do anything haha I love it. It was much needed. Plus hes the same character as salah, so of course I couldnt resist.

Bo, he IMed me today and I will forever love that kid with all my heart. He made my day. Again I didnt realize how much I missed him until talking to him. I'm so glad he doesnt hold grudges because of other people, that makes me love and respect him even more, unlike some other people who were mutual friends.

whoa.

Passionate.

so so messy.

"I'll be waiting by the phone."--- WHAT THE FUCK?!