The last time I was this determined to lose weight was about 2 years ago when I succeeded, and I plan on going way beyond that... so heres to achieving the sweetest revenge =)
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Oh how sweet it is
The last time I was this determined to lose weight was about 2 years ago when I succeeded, and I plan on going way beyond that... so heres to achieving the sweetest revenge =)
Friday, February 5, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
The truth.
"If I had one gift that I could give you, my friend, it would be the ability to see yourself as others see you, because only then would you know how extremely special you are."
-B.A. Billingsly
-B.A. Billingsly
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
For myself.
I'm being more conscious of my outer appearance in hopes that I will understand my inner self. I know weight has always been an issue for me, and I'm really determined to change it. I know I am self conscious of my thin hair so I'm gonna try to do something about it. I've been breaking out worse than I have in the past, so I'm going to take measures to avoid that. I am not doing this for anyone else! I am not doing this because I feel like these things are reasons why I don't have a boyfriend or ever had one or to throw it in anyones faces, although this would be a really nice bonus =) .... I am doing this solely for myself and for myself alone. I'm hoping these changes help me feel better. I need to love and appreciate myself inside and out before I expect anyone else to.
Unfixable Causes.
"I've learned a lot this past year.
I've learned that things don't always
turn out the way you planned it,
or the way you think they should.
And I've learned that there are things
that go wrong that don't always
get fixed or get put back together
the way they were before.
I've learned that some broken things
stay broken, and I've learned
that you can get through bad times
and keep looking for better ones,
as long as you have people who love you."
I couldn't have said this better if I wrote it myself.
Today priya dropped me off at my car which was really nice since I didn't have to take the bus, and just a few cars from mine was Jess' car. This was the first time I've seen it since we stopped talking, its crazy how I haven't even seen her since the beginning of summer. Then I thought why can't we just be friends?! why cant we just suck it up and be nice? It doesn't seem that hard, why does this feel like middle school?! Aren't we more mature than this?! What happened with us was just so dumb! but then I realized that she doesn't want to fix this and she wants to act immature, and that is her prerogative. Because some things that go wrong can't always get fixed (no matter how hard I tried to fix them) and that's just how life goes. A year ago that would've been either maria or jess dropping me off at my car, and this year its Priya who is the sweetest girl in the world and would never do anything to hurt anyone. It's friends like her that make me appreciate not being friends with people who caused me lots of stress in the past.
I've learned that things don't always
turn out the way you planned it,
or the way you think they should.
And I've learned that there are things
that go wrong that don't always
get fixed or get put back together
the way they were before.
I've learned that some broken things
stay broken, and I've learned
that you can get through bad times
and keep looking for better ones,
as long as you have people who love you."
I couldn't have said this better if I wrote it myself.
Today priya dropped me off at my car which was really nice since I didn't have to take the bus, and just a few cars from mine was Jess' car. This was the first time I've seen it since we stopped talking, its crazy how I haven't even seen her since the beginning of summer. Then I thought why can't we just be friends?! why cant we just suck it up and be nice? It doesn't seem that hard, why does this feel like middle school?! Aren't we more mature than this?! What happened with us was just so dumb! but then I realized that she doesn't want to fix this and she wants to act immature, and that is her prerogative. Because some things that go wrong can't always get fixed (no matter how hard I tried to fix them) and that's just how life goes. A year ago that would've been either maria or jess dropping me off at my car, and this year its Priya who is the sweetest girl in the world and would never do anything to hurt anyone. It's friends like her that make me appreciate not being friends with people who caused me lots of stress in the past.
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